The last few months have been a roller coaster. My emotions have been up and down.
change 1:
My dad(who I haven't seen or spoken to in over 3 years) is in stage 4 cirrhosis and has progressive alcohol dementia. He is no longer able to care for himself and we have been trying to find placement for him. It is hard because his disposition is not exactly the best(to put it mildly). There have been lots of phone calls, emails and trips to the hospital trying to take care of him. I don't mind. It has been great to just touch him and hear his voice.
Change 2:
In the midst of this my mom is moving in. I know most people cringe but I am looking forward to it. I am praying it will be a time for my mom and I to restore some old hurts and build a better relationship. I am looking forward to a live in babysitter(just kidding mom, well a little). You always think about possibly taking care of your parents but I didn't think it would be both at the same time. We have been moving rooms, rearranging things and painting getting ready for the move.
Change 3:
The air on my Astro died and we had to buy a new(to us) van. Not exactly what we were wanting to do but I love my Honda Odyssey.
Change 4:
Probably the most difficult. After 12 years at the same church we have joined another. It was a leading by God and logistics.(we live a long way from our old church) It was time to be a part of the community we live in. I like our new church but it is so different. I miss my old friends and I do not like being the new girl.
Do I think any of these things are coincidence? NO, God is faithful and teaching me a lot. I am having to lean on Him like never before in my life. When I think I cannot take one more minute He gently reminds me that He is my help and my source of strength. I am not particularly enjoying this season of growth but I am loving this deeper relationship with the Lord.
Don't know when I'll be back but for those who are still tuning in this is where I am. I covet your prayers.
Tara
